soldier. In the beginning, he is naive. He may question the morality of killing other people, but mostly he has to deal with his own fear, has to focus on survival. After he kills his first enemy, he is over- whelmed with emotions. He may wonder about the family of the dead man and feel a sense of remorse. But as time goes on and he participates in more battles, kills more people, he becomes hard- ened. He is transformed into a professional soldier. I had become a professional soldier. Admitting that fact opened the door for a better understanding of the process by which crimes are committed and empires are built. I could now comprehend why so many people have committed atrocious acts -- how, for example, good, family-loving Iranians could work for the shah's brutal secret police, how good Germans could follow the orders of Hitler, how good American men and women could bomb Panama City. As an EHM, I never drew a penny directly from the NSA or any other government agency; MAIN paid my salary. I was a private cit- izen, employed by a private corporation. Understanding this helped me see more clearly the emerging role of the corporate executive-as- EHM. A whole new class of soldier was emerging on the world scene, and these people were becoming desensitized to their own actions.